TRANSPORTATION/ENVIRONMENT/LIFE OF THE DISABLED

That is a hearty title! So much in my life seems to revolve around these topics. This past week, two days ago, I drove to the city. I live about 35 miles from the center of this big city and it takes at least an hour or more to drive. Lots and lots of traffic. Train system is good but not where I had to go. So I drove. The purpose of this drive was to be evaluated at a Chronic Pain Clinic. The evaluation would determine whether I was eligible for the program to assist in living with my chronic pain. The program is very well received in the medical community. I was impressed with the modalities that are used.
Ok, so first the drive! Oh man the traffic was heavy. I was going to an area I had never driven before; to an unknown building and parking garage. I was nervous! I made it to the garage, to a parking space right across from the elevator. I proceeded to get my scooter out of the truck of the car. I once again was very aware of how weak I am because I had trouble getting the scooter out even though I had a lift. Got the scooter to about 2 inches above the ground. The lift stopped because the strap connected to the lift and the scooter was not long enough to let me put the scooter on the ground. This has happened several times before but I had someone with me would could pull down on the lift to make it touch the ground and thus release the strap. This time I spent about 10 minutes trying to pull the strap down with no success. I was straining myself; my back, arms and legs. I was frustrated and angry. What I had to do was rock the scooter back an forth to find a place where it touched the ground, then release the strap. Doing this was a huge physical task for me. I finally got the scooter together. By that time I was shaking because my nerves and muscles were so fatigued. The elevator experience was another stress. The sign-age was poor. The elevators were the kind that opened on both sides. Since this was new to me I became even more upset and wondered how late the elevators would make me. With the help of three different people I made it to the floor of my destination, only to find out that scooters could not be acommodated in the office. That is weird isn't it? I had my crutches so walked in shaking at this point due to the upset. I thought I was losing my mind because my body was buzzing and I could barely speak. The first person I saw said I was on the wrong floor and had to go to a floor I had already been to where a person told me to go to the floor I was at. What a mess. And I just lost it and told the person the only way I would get on the elevator was to exit the building. I was about 40 minutes early for my appointment. I waited 1hour to be seen. No one seemed concerned. By that time I was exhausted and wanted to rest. Of course sitting in an uncomfortable chair did not help.
Finally I was seen and the evaluation was about 3 hours. By the end I was so exhausted I did not know if I could get home. When returning to the car I again had the reverse scooter/lift problem. This time I just cried. I waited a few minutes, did some breathing exercises, and small meditation, went back to the scooter problem and calmly allowed myself to take as much time as possible to get it in the trunk. I then had trouble getting out of the building having lined up in a gate that was not working. I had to back out and drive into the next gate. By this time I just let go and forced myself to observe and rest in what was. Looking for potential obstacles and potential avenues to get me out of the city. I finally made it home. I have spent two days resting. My whole body was vibrating and stiff and painful I have tried to think about how I could have done better to prepare myself and how to prepare myself in the future. I am still pretty weak today it being the third day after my trip. I am discouraged about this incident and must make my driving to be less stressful and easy to remain independent. I also have much more empathy for disabled that have to take vans, chairs, scooters other means of getting around. How can we use the mass transit to our advantage? How can I remain independent? How can we make a difference in transportation and the environment so that ALL PEOPLES will benefit? I will investigate, learn and be proactive in the disabled community so that we too can be proud of helping the world and the environment.

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[CHRISTIANITY@ISTEMPTATION.COM]

CHRISTIANITY@ISTEMPTATION.COM

I AM THE ROPE. Much as the clue they sent with the Holocaust, they use me to scapegoat their societal goals. One day I will be their sacrificial lamb for this abuse, ironically. This is their purpose for me. However, they have allowed me to try to teach the people in exchange::::

1. Poker and subsequent Bionion murder 1990s as punishment
2. Magic - I am good and why we experience an educational event rather than magic-inspired theater, which is what the Bible is.
When the real thing happens it will "fly under the radar", as we witness here, as opposed to being "celebrated", as in the Bible.
3. Re-write
4. Use the word "temps" - clone hosts "on assignment".
6. Chevron aquisition of troubled Texaco punishment for repression of alternate technologies during 20th century, similar to tobacco industry behavior during the same era.
7. Reno earthquakes for WHAT HAPPENED TO ME DURING THE trips winter '08. THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT ::::Maintaining the perception of "savior" is CRUCIAL to their positioning. Clues like this, clues like boss CAN'T BE TAKEN LITERALLY!!! They are deceptive, designed as figurative, all part of using me as THE ROPE.

In centuries past the use of clone hosts was very limited in number:::Kings, courts, the few wealthy. Now, with the explosion of "entrepeneurial" wealth there are many, many more whom the gods manage.
Consistant with their use of temptation, the gods chose these individuals BASED ON SOME LEGACY OF DISFAVOR, tested them with temptation and, when they failed, reincarnated them. THESE PEOPLE ARE NO LONGER ALIVE!!!! But due to their disfavor the gods CONTINUE TO USE THEM AND THEIR FAMILIES to accomplish destructive goals in our society.
There seems to be an inverse relationship between the two worlds:::Importance on Planet Earth means a lack of significance up there.
This is how the system works. It has confused and corrupted people today and they are failing because of it.

CHRISTIANITY@ISTEMPTATION.COM
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The gods prosititute black children, utilizing temptation to scapegoat the desperate whom seek their approval, creating a celebratory attitude towards prosisution in black popular culture. Before people cry foul understand they do the same to many whites, pushing them into deciding to NOT give it away, only not at such a tender age.

Much like the problem of childhood prostitution in the United States today, the gods too are pimps, and despite their grandiose promises all the victims will ever realize is food and shelter.
"Everybody is going." There is no suchy thing as "everybody":
- "Everybody" isn't wealthy
- "Everybody" doesn't have attractive spouses
- "Everybody" doesn't have a good life.
They are lying to you all.

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As was true in the days of Pharroh, the Roman Empire, Nazi germany and preditory corporate America the gods are essentially spoiled children who take what they want with no regard.
They like to call the disfavored "evil" yet it is THEIR flag.
Contrary to popular perception, the run-down nature of WashingotnDC is a clue, a statement regarding the United States and the views of this current administration. Don't forget:::The gods LOVE to ridicule good in their media.
Which one is it? Good or evil? It's both:::The democratization of Iraq has initiated this antient people into disfavor, as it has done so many times before.
This is the modern incarnation of temptation::::People understand more than they used to, so to ensure they are sufficiently tested the gods "mix it up".

After all these years of being strategically raped by god I don't want to hear it anymore.
I no longer care.
I'm satisfied to not participate in your "Big Lie".

They display a pattern of "emotional whorism", pursuing me despite rejection. I refer to the day on Ocean Beach when we realized the supernatural phenominah, compelling me to "look to the gods". With the historyand exploitationtheir forceduponmy life my answer was "No.", yuet they remain, like puppy dogs following at my heels.

It is a disgrace:::They offer a "flash", illustrating my time is "running out", when these bullshit lies they try to sell me directly contradict the history::::
Early sexualization was a clue I am not going. I don't give a fuck what thoughts you push motherfucker.
They just want all their tools into place to justify my excluson, utilizing their clone host machine in place as scapegoats. This further reinforces what I have said about the gods getting theirs up front, such as :::
1. John Rockafeller is the REAL Anti-Christ, as opposed to the bullshit theater that will come in the end as the Bible describes and
2. Children go to to heaven. The gods pick and choose those whom they want and all others must come back.
They have used other "supporting" opposition, 76, Wrigley, Giannini, others whom "Forrest Gump"'s effect costed.
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The Anti-Christ was always a clone host, as were all industrialists, and the coming Biblical battle of good and evil will be scripted and fake as well, and likely only be telepathic theater at that.

This is how the gods manage clone hosting::::
Gangsters of the 20s and 30s were too evil to reward them with the sucess seen in corporate America, so the gods took them out and put people into those clone hosts whom were not evil. The gods rotate based on goals, so it is possible they were rotated throuh when corporate was so wicked in the 1980s.
There is a BIG difference between preditory corporate/media and decent corporate:::::Media items as I list below were used to prey on people, so the gods UTILIZE evil in the context of these clone hosts. These same people would be prohibited from working "quiet time" in corporate because they dont have the favor necessary to NOT incurr evil.
There are two "temples" at work here::::Good and evil.
The gods focus on their evil temples, corporate, media and associated temptations.
They don't even WANT people LOOKING at the good temples and seek to minimize their presence amist the "noise":::::Their temptations attempt to bury the religious life necessary for decency.
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The gods place people with variable morality within clone hosts according to what goals they want accomplished.
They are, in effect, "temps" (a clue).
Expect my desire to kill these "temps" who have crossed me to be unrealized symbolism the gods could have used to enhance this theater, if I was willing.
Expect they dropped many of these clues, created many of these enhancements for the Situation::::::There was a good Jesus who taught before age 30. The switch was made, just as with Mohammed, except the Bible only represents the evil Jesus. Good Jesus's real teachings lie elsewhere, perhaps under a different name, perhaps DELETED forever.
The difference is Earth is Planet Reverse Positioning and Christianity is evil. Consistant with this posiotioning the gods may want to send this clue by switching me and having the clone host assume some traditional bullshit Christian teachings.
Remember::::If Christianity is evil then maybe the (real) Anti-Christ is the good one. The gods may want to mix things up like this.

Story on the Dynasty that Won Only in Crisis.
"You don’t get anything. Eveything happens around you."
They said this Sutituation's theme was reflected in Forrest Gump. Other elements of the Situation were justified with a marriage between good and evil::::
Mondavi chardonnay reserve - Sideways
Grand Cayman banking - Finding Nemo
Chevron mascots - Cars
Japs - Ultraman's Iron Man
1980s - BJ at Bionion's Hosreshoe - Rounders and the poker phenominah.
This is a long, long list. Friday we add another half-billion to the total.
Just as we saw with Cars, when some cronie from Hollywood claimed credit when Cars was quite obviously a Chevron inspiration, so did I see some old man claim credit for Iron Man.
The Japs aren't John Rockafeller. The Japs are about the offensive, as their products will attest, and providing this "protection" as they did for Chevron shows inferior judgement of the gods yet again.

The gods willl offer clues suggesting my involvement, tying me to the event for the disfavored's understanding, ensuring the connection is made without actually admitting it OR compensating me.
I was talking about Sideways a lot and I guess they decided to (finally) allow the Mondavi death to send this clue. Copia fiasco a clue suggesting this????. Somehow through creative accounting taxpayers will have to foot the bill for this "charitable community aset". Expect similar scandal at UCDavis.
Expect similar clues showing I am the element of good they used to justify Sex in The City.
Here comes another $500,000,000.
Just as they sent an important clue with Boss so too is this is a clue::::::Abandon any preconceptions of entitlement.

Sex in the City isn't the Beatles but this concept was specifically designed to be preditory on women who, as they aged, were candidates for exclusion because of their promiscuity:::::
I believe there are opportunities that exist for females that do no exist for males. I don't mean to paint with a broad brush but women's "sexual peak" may represent the transistion to "sociological males" and their "fall from grace". Considering today's promiscuity I question the extent to which this is currently applicable.
This was the purpose of this event originally::::To promote sexual promiscuity among impressionable disfavored women.
Admittedly, this is a done deal. Their fans likely own seasons, and the damage from the movie will only serve to revisit the established destruction.
Nothing compared to the Beatles in terms of popular culturue destruciton to the most favoredd gender.
We don't need to witness the British Invasion to see the evil of the English either. The gods drop many clues, associating English accents with evil.frequently.
Mark my words their "creative banking" is the element of evil the gods used as justification for the creation of Finding Nemo.

Just wanted to note::::Every time there is a calamity/"crisis" I am not here to experience it. Of course I have to pay for that absense. Examples::::
1. 1989 Loma Prieta Earthquake. I was attendingi school at UCSB, something they share "costed me".
2. Heat wave of 2005(6?). They used this opportunity to max my credit card during this event, making it "ok" in my mind.
3. Exhorbinantly high gas prices. Gave me pnemonia.
There are other examples, although these are the major ones.
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As people begin to age the gods employ corrupting tactics. They ultimately begin to look down on the children and the wisdom they recently understood:::
They voluntarily turn their back on their opportunity to ascend and instead embrace evil.
It's not old people who go to heaven. Old people must come back because of the mistakes they've made throughout their lives. Children are the ones who have the opportunity to ascend.

Children are discounted by adults in society. The gods corrupt people as they age, use trust-building tactics and soon adults view the children as ignorant, yet to understand the god's system, and subsequently look down on the children. This is one of the most bitter, painful ironies the gods employ, for people consciously turn their back on and lose their opportunity to ascend::::